I John 4:10 In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us.
I have good news! No matter the reason, your feelings aren't telling you the truth! God loves you, and if you begin to see yourself the way God sees you, your attitudes will begin to change. If He didn't love you, would Christ have been willing to die for you? But He did! The Bible says, "By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us" (I John 3:16)
God loves you. Hammer that truth into your heart and mind every day. It will make all the difference.